SUICIDE

As I've said before in other blogs-  my 2nd grade teacher or one of them called me naive.

I recently entered a conversation about assisted suicide.  It's probably one of those subjects like politics and religion.  One's that you should not discuss.

But along the way of me not saying what I wanted to say I was told that my father having died of brain cancer was in pain and seizing before dying-  most certainly.

I don't recall either of those things being the case, but back to my naive-ness.  I miss you daddy and can't wait to see you again.

btw;  my answer:

At the close time of death, when the worldly are asking why we should have to let a person suffer and not "kill" them just because of the "God" people:  I say; It is the last chance to bring them to the Son, to seek everlasting life, the life that Jesus promises to all who believe on Him.  That being said:  and the "child of God" not your child, mother, brother, sister, bff- but God's child does come to believe- Seek me and ye shall find me...., THEN SUICIDE IS NOT AN OPTION.

Forgive me Lord for not speaking up for you-  Blessed are those who mourn for they shall have the Kingdom of God.

The KKK and Other Wounds that Don't Heal

My husband died an untimely death. He would have been 52 years old on August 19th, but died May 26th 2002. Though he was ill and had battled cancer for about 6 years that we know of, I did not expect his death.

To say our marriage was a battlefield may be a little bit of an overstatement. That's according to who you talk to. I can only say that, his best friend through life and one of his fiancee's did not show up at his services. They are respectively (certainly not respectfully) Kevin Phillips, and Kathy Fraley. Thus the first two of the three KKK. The third K belongs to my friend and then foe/friend Kathleen. We'll leave her somewhat anonymous.

My Elf on the Shelf for

Oh boy have I started something.  Lord, I just don't have the words I need most of the time.  I decided that I didn't like the whole Elf/ Shelf concept of being watched, etc. 
So I looked up some Christian alternative ideas.  Well, came up with nice letter to accompany the Elf which will show up tomorrow.  My daughter was not happy with the result!!.  She says that she is tired of Christians thinking they can get away with anything and then be forgiven.  Dear Lord, what has this world taught her?   What have I taught her, or better yet, not taught her.  I tried to explain, but the right words wouldn't come.  Any way, I changed the letter somewhat.  Then I start wondering, what right do I have anyway to put my Christian beliefs on to my unsuspecting 6 year old grandson?  I guess that's why I never raised my children with any "real" belief.  I didn't feel I had the right to put my beliefs on to them.  Now I begin to see that I am offering to have their souls saved, or at least a way to have that- but with children....  Oh Lord help me see this correctly-  with your eyes!

I'll keep posting on Elf stuff- maybe.

Syncretism

Syncretism as I understand; like serving God and money. Here's another bend on it. I am called to pray for a nameless, faceless young girl. Her life taken by a friend of my youngest daughter. I hear my daughter's words. They are words of the Spirit within her. She says; "he was so sad", "it is so sad". I hear the forgiving Spirit within her, not all would hear it, and definitely not understand it . I pray for that young girl's family. I pray for all the young girl's out there who find themselves so desperate to accept a beating from those of which they desire love. And so Syncretism- Seek the Kingdom of God first... We cannot serve both God and man, money, self..... it will lead to sin and death. Please dear Lord, protect my daughter's and all the daughter's of this world. Bring them to you. Send your Helper. In Jesus's name I pray.

I do not forget Steve. I've seen miracles before- If it be your will- force his cry for You- he is yours also.

Fire Flies and 7 Seconds

What do Fire Flies and seven seconds have in common you ask? Well, on average they light up every seven seconds. How do I know that you ask? I did not "google" it; I counted!!! Maybe I'm losing my mind. I do love nature. I watched Michael Jackson's This is It the other night and fell in love again. I always knew we lost a great humanitarian, and one who loves nature also. I wanted to go looking for all my MJ Cd's. Where did they all go any way. Me and MJ spent many hours together. Happy, sad, tragic, drunken with alcohol and drunk with spirituality. I didn't realize how I missed him. Did I ever tell you that I think I saw him right here in Brick Pathmark? I still think it was him. For whatever reason, I've always felt he was going to "be at my door" one day!!! It came to my the other night- I will see him again- he will be "at my door" one day. My Heavenly door. God's ways are not our ways, God's time is not our time, or place, or ...... If he never does come "to my door", I've still gained a beautiful insight.

Split Personalities

I just don't understand all of myself all of the time. This morning I felt so creative. I read another's blog (Pleated ....) Wow, can't remember!!! I was so inspired to work on the "blog". Somehow I made a new blog, I think. Ha Ha. But when I returned to this old blog- I have a "link" or something , don't know how that happened and read one of my posts that I actually forgot I posted and still loved it!!!! HA HA HA HA. Oh well, if any one following, please give advise on how to do this thing!!!! Can I really make $$$ with a blog? Have like a store? Oh the things we learn when we LEARN2LISTEN.

iGoogle

just wanted to touch base*@>--;-- I'm still here.